Home Again

Well moved back into the dorm again....it is okay just kinda boring. like the roommate though. just wasn't ready to move back in. more later.....it is late and i don't feel like writting a lot.

Andrei Andrei

yeah this is him. can you say HOTTIE??? seriously!!! there is a woman on-line who used him as a model for her drawing of Zarek. Zarek is a fictional character based off Sherrilyn Kenyon's Dark-Hunters.

Thoughts

So now I am home, just chilling and counting down the days until I start school again. kinda stressing. just cause i have a crap load of stuff to do, and the truth is, it is hard trying to figure things out when i don't know what is going on. On the 26th, i move in at 9-1....and then I can't go home until the 5th of September, because of the HOT program that I am doing. I mean the only reason why i did it was to move in early, but turns out my roommate is already going to be there.....so that was kinda pointless. but the positive is my friend is doing it too. I mean, okay I am tired of being home....but then i don't want to leave. i mean i am comfortable here, and now i have to go back......ugg. last year was hard, especially the first semester. second semester was a lot easier!! i know school is going to be okay.....but it wont be until like October or something. I mean I am just nervous......I am going to have 17 units, trying to find a job on campus, community service with the elderly, and a new roommate......then the HOT program. To be honest I am not sure, but i might even Rush to join a sorority....IDK. i mean the one i am thinking about is really expensive... it is going to suck when i move back in....i have SOO much stuff that i need to move in. then i also go to Curves here where i live, and i want to start going to the one where my school is. so i need to transfer to the other one, but i don't know when i can. cause of school and stuff....this all just sucks. then my financial aid is pissing me off....school is expensive and i don't want to be screwed....

Plus i don't know how it is going to be like living with my new roommate, I am not going to lie she is really nice and i like her a lot. i just don't know how it is going to be. last year my roommate wasn't too nice, we never talked.... or anything. but i liked her cause she never brought anyone over, except that one girl i couldn't stand.

I know that this is just crap and that other people have problems that mine can't compare to. Okay random but the other day i was watching something about Andrea Yates, and she just pisses me off. i am not too sure if i want kids, but how in the FUCK could someone kill their innocent children??? i know she heard voices in her head, but regardless it is still fucked up. it is just sad, and i almost started crying just watching it.....

well i am going to head out, i need to type something for my sister.

Here is a poem that i love with a passion:

THE TIGER
by: William Blake (1757-1827)
IGER, tiger, burning bright
In the forests of the night,
What immortal hand or eye
Could frame thy fearful symmetry?

In what distant deeps or skies
Burnt the fire of thine eyes?
On what wings dare he aspire?
What the hand dare seize the fire?

And what shoulder and what art
Could twist the sinews of thy heart?
And, when thy heart began to beat,
What dread hand and what dread feet?

What the hammer? What the chain?
In what furnace was thy brain?
What the anvil? What dread grasp
Dare its deadly terrors clasp?

When the stars threw down their spears,
And water'd heaven with their tears,
Did He smile His work to see?
Did He who made the lamb make thee?

Tiger, tiger, burning bright
In the forests of the night,
What immortal hand or eye
Dare frame thy fearful symmetry?

Fall 2008 Semester....

Well.....what can i say?? I don't really want to start yet, but what can i do?? I mean I can't stop time, and I know I am going to have to go back. But I am really stressed. I mean yeah, other people have more important things going on.....but starting school and stuff is just stressing me a lot. I am going to have to do 17 units. Two of my classes are for my English major, one is for my Sociology major, Spanish 2, and a community service class. <--------this is another thing stressing me out.....then i am going to work on campus, and don't know where i am going to work. I want to work in the Leo's Den....cause it will be a 1000000 times easier, i hope. then a new roommate................ugggg. i swear the first month is going to be hell, and then afterwards....i hope it is all good. blah, idk........i will see what happens. well i g2g, bye.